Jump to content

     


Photo
- - - - -

I Said The Shahada (Well Yesterday)


  • Please log in to reply
21 replies to this topic

#1 Nightingale

Nightingale

    Full Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 676 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:Virginia
  • Interests:Reading, Movies, Writing, Learning, Soccer, Traveling
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 12:39 PM

First off, I am horrible at doing this so please be understanding. If I went into the whole backstory
and reasons for my reversion, I'm sure it would take quite a while and could fill up at least a few
chapters of a book. Since I am a writer, don't test me because I can guarantee I could do it. But I'll try
to keep this to relevant points really.

Let me preface this with the fact that until I was 18, I had never been involved in any religion and
never had even attended church services or anything else. I knew that there was a God, yes just one,
but I didn't know anything else. My mother is a staunch Southern Baptist while my father is much
more an atheist or agnostic in his beliefs. When I finally did start going to church, it was to a
Southern Baptist church near my family's home just after my high school graduation. So I was
following in my mother's path basically.

At that time, since I was so new and was being told not to question what the pastor taught by
everyone, I just blindly went along with what I was told. At this time, my only thoughts about Islam
were generally thoughts about terrorists in the Middle East, because that's what everyone said. I had
never actually met a Muslim before. And then September 11th happened. I am somewhat ashamed to
admit that at that time I let myself be led by the prevailing sentiment about Islam and was very
judgemental about it.

Again that changed a few months later when I started working at a Starbucks nearby. During my
training, one of my trainers was a Muslim girl, wearing hijab and just always pleasant to people. Even
those who were grossly disgusting to her. I guess in a way I filed that information away in my brain
and it started to replace what I had felt about Islam.

I'm going to fast forward from there to just a few months ago. Despite my growing concerns about
my beliefs, I was a ministry team leader in my former church, specifically for the Audio/Video
ministry. Being a ministry team leader, I got to see the darker side of things in church: the politics, the
backstabbing and the hatred prevalent throughout the church itself. Because of my outspokenness
about hypocrites within the church, that darker side turned against me and started pushing for my
removal from the church in addition to stripping me of my position for reasons about my
questioning them, my own personal issues and the fact I was friends with "undesirables" aka non-
Christians.

Meanwhile, I had become friends with a German girl, Sara, online a little over a year ago. She had
told me she was Muslim but I didn't think much of it because she was just simply a friend. Earlier this
year, my Sunday school class at church did a segment on comparative religions, and Islam was the
last segment discussed. This was from Christian scholar Paul Carden, and while the segment was
playing, I kept thinking about the things he was saying...even though he was approaching it from a
standpoint of how to convert Muslims to Christianity. Needless to say, it doesn't seem to have
worked in my case. ;)

Around the time that the church was getting their case against me together, I started spending more
and more time talking to Sara and learning about Islam. Then I got pointed to these forums where I
was able to learn as well. The highlights of my day were actually reading the Qur'an aloud with her
and soaking in the things it said. She was also there as a support whenever I would tend to get upset
about what my former church was doing. In addition, I was starting to come out of my shell enough
to get involved here on these forums in some discussions, whether they were good or bad, I was
trying to insure I was fair in any appraisals I made.

While I talked with Sara, she had initially brought up the idea of fasting, as she told me about her
conversion five years previously. For whatever reason, I had agreed with her that I wanted to try
and fast during Ramadan, despite not being Muslim. From there, we discussed fasting before
Ramadan as well, something I also have discussed with a couple people here, and so a couple weeks
ago I fasted for the first time in my life. While it was hard, I felt great doing it and felt more sure in
my heart that I was on the right path. Also, her and I (despite being separated by thousands of miles)
have been fasting together most of this week.

I also reconnected with one of my former coworkers from Starbucks in the last couple weeks,
ironically at a political meeting for Ron Paul here. To say I was shocked to see her wearing hijab
would have been an understatement as she had always sought to convert Kelly (the Muslim girl I
mentioned earlier) to Christianity when we worked at Starbucks. She told me some of her story and I
felt sure that like Sara, Allah had placed her in my path to show me that I was finally moving in the
right direction. We've stayed in contact some too, and as I mentioned on another thread, she had
invited me to her masjid which is to happen this Friday. Needless to say, I was planning on going,
though I wasn't planning on going as someone who had already reverted.

That brings me to yesterday. In my talks with Sara, she had mentioned to me before that her sister-
in-law, who was herself a convert to Islam, would be honored if she could be there when I said my
Shahada which I planned to do with Sara since she had done so much to bring me to Islam in the
first place. I had agreed, and so I knew I would have to let them know ahead of time to actually set
that up. Then when her sister-in-law was over yesterday, despite everything else, I felt something
telling me to do it then. And so under their guidance, I said the Shahada and took a shower. I
remember being scared I was going to mess up because I was trembling while my heart was
pounding a thousand miles a minute it seemed and I had goosebumps all over my skin.

I couldn't stop smiling most of the night last night, even eliciting a comment from my mother who
asked why I was so happy. On another note, just to add something else of interest...my mother is
fasting for the first time in her life as well right now. While she doesn't condone Islam in any way as
of now, she is disgusted by how my former church treated me and is looking for a change, so only
Allah knows what will happen. But maybe in the future she'd decide to accept the truth. But for now,
I can't show that side of me to her yet very easily, but I know and Allah knows what I feel.

Thank you for letting me say this and I apologize if it is so long. :)

#2 Nile_Salafy

Nile_Salafy

    Advanced Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 1,705 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Location:Cairo, Egypt
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 12:46 PM

Allahu Akbar .. and Al Hamdullilah .. great ending for a long journey I must say :)

#3 Saracen21stC

Saracen21stC

    Senior Member

  • IF Moderator
  • 3,259 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Location:Gawaher
  • Interests:Studying Islam (and other religions), Learning different languages and cultures, reading (e)books (preferably religious and history books).
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 01:23 PM

Masha'Allah Sister.

What an inspiring story. I think I will never get tired of reading convert/revert stories!!!

Here is a good pdf : http://www.islambasi...ownload&BID=170

#4 ala'adin

ala'adin

    Full Member

  • Member
  • PipPipPip
  • 793 posts

Posted 14 June 2012 - 01:26 PM

Alhumdullilah, thanks for sharing that. On behalf of all forum, if there is anyway we can help please ask and may Allah make your journey easy and make you person of paradise....

#5 Nightingale

Nightingale

    Full Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 676 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:Virginia
  • Interests:Reading, Movies, Writing, Learning, Soccer, Traveling
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 01:29 PM

Thank you :) I've just got to try and keep learning everything I can. That's my fear to be honest that I will not do well enough. But as I read over and over, Allah is the oft forgiving. So there's hope for me. :)

#6 ala'adin

ala'adin

    Full Member

  • Member
  • PipPipPip
  • 793 posts

Posted 14 June 2012 - 01:45 PM

There is Always hope! We all are in need of His mercy!

#7 AhmedTi

AhmedTi

    Full Member

  • Member
  • PipPipPip
  • 73 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 02:22 PM

Allahu Akbar, thanks to Allah who soften your heart towards Islam. We ask Allah to dearest Islam with your Islam. Meanwhile, please be patient as Allah will inevitably test your belief according to its level of faith.

Allah says in Surat [Al Ankaboot (29):2-3]
(Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: “We believe,” and will not be tested.)

#8 AHMAD_73

AHMAD_73

    Advanced Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 1,394 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Location:EGYPT
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 03:21 PM

masha'a Allah, wa alhamdo llelah,

may Allah complete his favor up on you, support you on his path, and provide you with the real happiness and contentment in this very life and the eternal life.

First I have to congratulate you. you are sinless, now, All of your old sins had been forgiven and wiped out. You have a new and clear white sheets. Plz, try to keep it as it is.
Second, if you felt sorrow about the time you spent away from Allah, repented and regret for the sins you have done, by Allah's favor all of them will converted to good deeds,
"Unless he repents, believes, and works righteous deeds, for Allah will change the evil of such persons into good, and Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful" Quran 025.070

plz, make Doa'a for your Egyptian brothers and sisters. they are in a fatal joint of their history, presidntial election, which will either lead them nearer to Allah or the opposite, Allah forbids

#9 Amna4

Amna4

    Full Member

  • Member
  • PipPipPip
  • 448 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:Michigan, USA
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 09:49 PM

Mabrook sister, welcome to Islam! I'm a convert as well, though a little younger than you :)

If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I can give you alternate contact information if you'd like, especially for small questions that you don't think need a thread to themselves (or just support, I'm good at that :D )

#10 SaracenSoldier

SaracenSoldier

    Advanced Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 1,507 posts
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 14 June 2012 - 10:44 PM

That was a great read Alhumdulillah. I would've even read it if you wrote an essay as it's always great reading conversion/reversion stories.

Allahu Akbar .. and Al Hamdullilah .. great ending for a long journey I must say :)


Nah bro! This is just another chapter in the journey. The end is in Paradise insh'Allah(but I know what you mean :P).

#11 Nightingale

Nightingale

    Full Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 676 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:Virginia
  • Interests:Reading, Movies, Writing, Learning, Soccer, Traveling
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 15 June 2012 - 12:06 AM

The funny thing is, I've had Sara actually say I should write a book about it (but I don't think I want to). I love to write, but generally that is fiction. My life is not exactly a good example up to now to be honest, there's a lot I skipped and left out. Believe me. But thank you for the kind words, it helps to feel welcome here and in my faith for the first time ever.

#12 dot

dot

    e-SL@vE

  • Administration
  • 17,109 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Location:Egypt
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 16 June 2012 - 01:10 AM


Allahu Akbar. Masha'Allah.
May Allah Al-Mighty keep you in the right path, and grant you happiness in both worlds, and may He open your mother's heart to the beauty of Islam in time.
(Please remember me and all forum members in your prayers. It means so much to us that you do.)

#13 Absolute truth

Absolute truth

    Full Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 770 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 16 June 2012 - 01:10 PM

Welcome to islam sister :)
be patient

One must know that Allah will test him to see if he is a good Muslim or not because He loves him and He will give him more blessings if one pass the tests by endurance and with hope, asking Allah's help and seeking His pleasure.

- take Islam easy, slowly, without rush

One must start with priorities like learning how to make salah and starting to do it then gradually learning more things and practicing them; step by step, one will improve and do what he can to the best of his ability.
http://newmuslimacademy.org/

May Allah make the path of Islam smooth for all its followers ameen.

#14 Nightingale

Nightingale

    Full Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 676 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:Virginia
  • Interests:Reading, Movies, Writing, Learning, Soccer, Traveling
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 16 June 2012 - 01:51 PM

Thank you for that very much!!! I have registered there as well, as I feel anything that helps me learn is a good thing. :)

#15 Amna4

Amna4

    Full Member

  • Member
  • PipPipPip
  • 448 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:Michigan, USA
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 17 June 2012 - 05:29 AM

I registered for that, but never heard anything back.

#16 mblack

mblack

    Jr. Member

  • Member
  • PipPip
  • 13 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Location:Konya
  • Interests:Learning new languages,interact with different people from different cultures,
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 01 July 2012 - 05:08 AM

May Allah bless you sister!
What an interesting story!For sure Allah who soften the hearts of people.

#17 Saracen21stC

Saracen21stC

    Senior Member

  • IF Moderator
  • 3,259 posts
  • Gender:Male
  • Location:Gawaher
  • Interests:Studying Islam (and other religions), Learning different languages and cultures, reading (e)books (preferably religious and history books).
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 01 July 2012 - 06:04 AM

Here is a book for new sisters in Islam.

http://www.gawaher.c...s/#entry1260693

#18 ParadiseLost

ParadiseLost

    Senior Member

  • IF Guardian
  • 2,063 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 15 July 2012 - 06:12 PM

Oh my God I am so happy to hear this news that I have a new sister in Islam. I knew when you joined this forum that you were an open minded person who truly wanted to understand Islam and this is what happens when people open their hearts. Remember faith is a journey with ups and downs along the way so turn to Allah always on the highs and as well on the lows never lose hope in Allah who showed you the way. May Allah keep you strong. Ameen

#19 Nuzha

Nuzha

    Jr. Member

  • Member
  • PipPip
  • 40 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 03 August 2012 - 02:58 PM

An interesting story. Nice for sharing.
Am a convert also.
Will post my conversion story after my exams. Insha Allah.

#20 torkisamira

torkisamira

    Full Member

  • Member
  • PipPipPip
  • 112 posts
  • Gender:Female
  • Location:God's earth
  • Interests:I love God and every thing God likes.
  • Religion: Islam

Posted 11 August 2012 - 01:30 AM

Shokranlellah. I hope you be a real Muslim. Allah keeps you safe my sister.
If you have problem inshaallah we can help you.
I love new Muslims. :heart:

Edited by torkisamira, 11 August 2012 - 01:31 AM.