Well this is my story and i just want advice to do whats best
Basically I am 17 years old who Alhumdulillah who now understands what an noble honour it is to be a Muslim.
This all happened after a serious car accident which left me seriously doubting the way I lived my life.
I just have so much frustration, as i want to learn about Islam in a structured way full time.
I currently attend a so called Islamic college where I am learning psychology, sociology, English language and literature and critical thinking.
Alhumdulillah for my fist term I received good marks.
The college does not provide religious studies, nor Arabic nor anything that I really want to study.
My parents well my mum did not allow me to attend the local college as it is mixed, and as I have to pop down there sometimes as it is main campus I still get looks, wolf whistles and i just whip myself out of there even when I am just there for like 20 minutes! Astagfirullah!
My own college is not that good either, although the girls wear hijabs and abayas they still go out with boys, show disgusting disrepectful attitude to the teachers who are not Muslim, and now they have a negative image of Muslim girls which I try my best to combat.
I try my best to find any sisters gatherings in my area to learn, there is not much which I am looking for and even when i do get tought about Islam it usually one off event.
Today I went to classes to learn about tajweed and seerah of the Prophet Muhammad (May peace be upon Him)- i came a bit late so I have catching up to do but my classmates are 5- 6 year olds! It was an eye opener as I am so thick when it comes to Islam.
The only way I can get to learn is if i move out but I am not allowed. If I want to go to University I have to be married-
My mum wants me to marry a revert, as the Muslim Asians in our area are like sheep to the West and she has had very much bad experience with them.
However, there are very few in our area and i feel progress is not being made.
I just cant sit around wait to learn until I am married, I want to do it now......