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Hydden

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  1. Assalaam walaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu. This will be a bit strange. I'll start the story from 4 years ago. It was July 2009. I had to get admitted into high school. After giving several entrance tests, I finally got admission into a Muslim school (which I didn't know then). I experienced the usual incidents of a typical transfer student. I was surprised to see so many Muslims in my class. It was also a surprise that most of the girls (with a few exceptions) weren't wearing the obligatory hijabs. After I adapted to the school's environment, I met a girl wearing a white hijab. We talked during the lunch break. She was asking me questions related to religion. "Why do you worship idols?" I was stunned. I think I felt a slow spark within myself (in the centre). I said, "Because our ancestors did so.". "How did they know and why?", she asked. Like this, she asked many questions. I was uneasy and told her to stop talking about religion. But she was persistent and irregularly filled me with small (but hugely true) facts on Islam. I was reluctant. This continued for one and a half year. Then it was time for the 2nd year final exams. We were given a fortnight for preparation. One day, during this time, I do not know why, but I suddenly (and childishly) thought in my mind, "I want God to be my friend." Perhaps it was out of loneliness. But then I continued, "But He wouldn't do so with a lowly creature like me." I'm not sure but I think after the next few hours, the Tsunami disaster in Japan took place. Looking at the water swallowing half of Japan, I was struck with great fear. I thought, "Is it because I asked Him to be my friend?" I researched on Noah's ark, then the End of the World rumours, and prophecies. I noticed that most of the Islamic prophecies were true, then Biblical ones, then Hindu ones. I was still struck with fear that this world would end quickly. I was unable to concentrate on my studies. "I didn't want to end up in Hell", I thought. Then I searched for information "to save myself" on the internet. Most of the results were Christian sites. I was almost following it but I felt in my heart that I should worship God, not Jesus. A few months later, I asked God silently in my mind, "Which religion should I choose?" Then the fact that I joined a Muslim school and the fact that the shaitan existed to harm humans made me realize that Islam was the true religion. "It was right in front of me. Why didn't I realize it sooner?" When I've revealed to her, the white hijabi girl was happy to know that I've accepted Islam. But I knew that this was beginning. Many problems began to arise. Who would have thought my life would become difficult?.... This is the story of my reversion. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________ There's more. I'll share my problems in the next post. (P.S. Please forgive me for I've written this in a novel style. How insincere of me.)
  2. (Seriously, this game paused again?) Geometry.
  3. Oh dearie! There's a misunderstanding! Allow me to clear it! :o I think sir dot mistook 're-take' for 'taking it back'. Sigh. But Amber meant repetition, right? Ah well, you see, I dislike conflicts (I don't know if this one is called as such). But still, I hope I'm not the one who's misunderstanding... ^^; (Never thought there would be a filter for Allah H a f i z).
  4. Dare To Be True Game

    Nay and I'm not married. Bleh. Do/did you hit your child's butt for any reason? (i.e. fun or punishment)
  5. Waalaikum assalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh, Sis Amber. I'll be straightforward. There is no such thing as 'wrong time' when taking shahada. In fact, any time is the right time for you to take it. That feeling you had must be probably another form of 'frustration' you're talking about. I also took the shahada alone in English at first (silently to myself in my thoughts) and now I continue to do so in Arabic during prayers and dua. After all, most duas contain the shahada. Let me share you some facts about myself. I also didn't pray initially for 1 year. Yeah, worse than your current situation, I tell you. I felt guilty watching a fellow Muslim going to/coming from a Masjid when I couldn't pray. And then I learnt salat from the internet. It was hard at first, but eventually I got used to it. Just learn the stuff bit by bit and ingest it slowly. You'll get used to it. Make sure you completely learn the salat before Ramzan. I also don't wear the hijab currently due to tight circumstances. In fact, I simply wear a kurti (loose) and pajamas/jeans/pants all the time. I'm apparently (patiently) waiting for a big diamond opportunity to present itself for me to follow Islam completely and sincerely. And I'm telling such a thing will present to you too. So look at things on the brighter side. You can learn some sunnat actions and dua in the meantime since they please Allah (subhana wa taala). Read Surah Ya-Seen everyday as it's the heart of the Quran. So, um, that's all I can tell you. Hope it helped. Assalamu alaikum.
  6. (Are you sure those donuts were halal? D'oh!) Circle.
  7. Please Make Dua For My Grandmother. :(

    I personally think she can pray seated... :/
  8. (This is dead? Then I'll necromance this thread...) Butter.
  9. Please Make Dua For My Grandmother. :(

    Masha Allah. This may be rude of me, but is she very old? I'm asking because of the prayer steps...
  10. Please Make Dua For My Grandmother. :(

    Waalaikum assalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh. I pray that she gets better soon. Does she hate Islam or what, if you don't mind me asking?
  11. Dare To Be True Game

    Yes, quite. Do you think sparrows are very understanding and considerate?
  12. Dare To Be True Game

    No, not much. Do you feel irritated often?
  13. Dare To Be True Game

    No, I only know the first nine ayats and I don't know their meanings, mostly. Do you have a younger sibling?
  14. Dare To Be True Game

    Yes. Do you stomp on ants intentionally?
  15. Eating Haram Dream

    Assalaam walaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu. I should mention that I have been so cautious about packed items lately these days. I don't even know if this is a nightmare or not. There's this dream where I went to some Physics teacher just to improve my English langauge skills. He then suddenly treated us students some food and lastly, he served some meat. I didn't know what the meat was and I popped a small piece into my mouth. The teacher then said, "Ehehehe, you ate pork!" in a language I didn't knew but I understood. I was so shocked and I ran somewhere to vomit. After that I woke up. What is the meaning of this? Did I eat something haram without my knowing? I'm so concerned.
  16. Assalaam walaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu. I'll be straightforward as usual. There's a hadith stating, "If you jealousy in your heart equal to even the size of a mustard seed, you'll not get into Heaven." So, even if Muslims are pious and even with having erased every possible sin, does that mean they'll have no choice but to go to Hell? And another thing. Does this apply to those who have hatred instead of jealousy? I have loads of hatred towards certain people, even my parents. I'm a despicable creature with many negative and dark feelings, I know. So I'll burn in Hell? I don't show this outside though.
  17. Dare To Be True Game

    Yes, they're creepy! Did you ask answers from someone during examination?
  18. Dare To Be True Game

    Yes, when I was 15 years old. I hope that counts as grown-up, being 15, that is. Were you chased by a dog?
  19. Random Incoherence

    I am random, as randomly obvious.
  20. Dare To Be True Game

    No, I don't think so, as I'm disgustingly ignorant of the matter and I don't like to watch news. So pessimistic, I am. :( Did you fart in public by mistake?
  21. Chocolate. :)
  22. Hijab Is Like This

    LOL. This is funny.
  23. Dare To Be True Game

    Yes. Do you get jealous over someone having something better than you?
  24. Enjoyment.
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