As-salamu alaykum Man is not perfect or I should say I am not perfect. Someone said that perfection is not praying 5 times a day or reading Quran. Perfection will come when you cry without tears and your heart feels the pain. Or showing that you are feeling happy for someone without having uncontrollable envy. Or praying not just to complete a task, but with that level of concentration that you will feel when the time appears to be stopped. Allah has given me everything and I both am grateful, with words I cant choose to describe also feel ashamed that I am not able to over come these , shall I say, human natures mentioned above. No matter how much I try. It just happens with a sudden. Joining these forums with honest points that keeps annoying me. Please welcome me and pray for me that I find what I am looking for.