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Hello everybody,

 

I thought i’d add my story here, just for the sake of sharing

Where to begin... It’s a long story, but I hope others may find support/inspiration in it.

Also, please excusse my many spellings and gramatic errors. Englisch is not my native tongue and on top of that, I‘m dyslectic. :D

 

I was raised as a christian but lost my faith somewhere at the age of 6. Things just didn’t make sense for me. I geuss I ‘ve been quite critical. I even remember thinking my teacher was a morron when I was 7 because he had claimed that time travelling could be possible. “If time is the speed at wich things change how could these changes be undone for a traveler? was the first thing that popped into my mind� :D As I grew older I went trough some hard times and had to deal with serious matters at an early age. The worst of them all was a depression of my father in wich he tried to kill us in order to comit suicide afterwards. The fights, fleeing home, the divorce, i’m sure one can imagen...

 

It seemed like everytime I trusted someone, loved someone they ‘d betray me. It didn’t take long for me not to trust anyone let alone believe in a higher being without any proof of such. I’d even say at one point I fitted all criteria from the defenition of a paranoia. Not that I seemed to have any problems, I functioned perfectly in todays sociaty, but inside I always felled like a big mess. I studied science and was quite good in it, I even became passionated about it, for they seemed the only certainties in life. Morality and ethicks were pointless words, leftovers from old wives tales and so called holy books.

 

Until one day I was smoking pot for the first time of my live with a friend. I don’t know what really happened that day but it was the scariest expierence of my life. I was convinced of being dead and in hell. The friend sitting next to me was the devil. Every move I made was anticipated. Every sentence had an answer ready before I could even complete it. I felt like a playball being psychologicly tortured for fun. And the fear was worse than any imaganable pain. I was told by my docter later that most likely LSD was sprayed on to the wheed. I had my urine tested but since it happened in the weekend and visited the docter on Monday, It was possible for the test to come out negetive even though it did had lsd on it . The test resut turned out negative, and the incertainty was killing me. For a month I slept with the lights on. I started to better my ways out of fear. As time went by, the fear diminished but the morality and ethicks kinda grew on me.

 

It took me about 3 years of self reflection and filosofising. But I was finally able to find answers to all me questions, basicly get things lined out once and for all so I wouldn’t have to bother myself with them anymore. I concluded to believe only in science as I have always done before. Basicly because I refused to believe science left any room for free will. An indispensable aspect of any religion containing words as hell and heaven, punishment and reward.

 

So I defined my personality disorder and found out the source of it on my own. Well at least, i had some clues. Memories of meself in the corridor of the house I grew up in looking at the bathroomdoor. Sounds of my mother and father strugeling. My mother screaming to my older sister: pick up that knife and get rid of it. It’s funny how those memories came back. I can see myself standing in that corridor and know what is happening, but I can’t recal what I saw. I only see myself in 3th-person vieuw.

 

I alweys knew I was diffrent from everybody else and figured that finding out the cause of my problems would help me deal with it, solve the problem. But somehow that didn’t helped. I had everything figured out, but I was back at sqaure one, everything seemed pointless. And nobody’s to be trusted. So I gave up the fight and continued life. Without realising it my morality diminished again. My life had no meaning. Trusted nobody nor anything exept for logics and science.

 

But then help came from an unexpected corner.In retrospect I’d even say right before my point of vieuw would become problematic

23;62 On no soul do We place a burden greater than it can bear.

I was trying to bend my mind over the difficult theory of time traveling and einstein-rozenberg-bridges but it all didn’t make any sense. ‘Till in very small amount of time a series of unrelated events, one after another seemed to point something out to me, It was as subtile touches pushing me towards a point of vieuw. At first I thought my paranoia was finaly getting to me, but then It finaly hit me, as if the puzzle came toghether: science doesn’t deny religion, no far from it, science needs religion to complete it. When I posted this on another forum I’m active on, I was told of the miracels of the qur’an. How certain things wich were unknown in the time the qu’ran was writen are in it. Being so fond of science this immediatly got my attention. So I started reading....

 

Seas of emotions went trough me as I was reading, I cried of sadness and laughed of joy, I felt safe and afraid at the same time. The words were so strong yet deliberating. So plaine yet ireplaceble in their sentences. At some times it even seemed as if the book interacted with my thoughts. No other then the creator of all things could have made sush a masterwork. I never knew religion could be this logical and rational. About a week and 15 soera’s later I converted. I felt alive. I believed. I no longer mistrust. And my heart found piece as promised.

13;28 Who have believed and whose hearts have rest in the remembrance of Allah. Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest!

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mashallah, that was an inspiring story! :D Subhannallah, the things you had to go through. :D :D you were guided to Islam. Allah truly guides whom he wishes. i know its kind of late but...Welcome to Islam! :D

 

by the way, dont worry about the spelling/grammar mistakes. It was really clear actually. :D

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Assalam Alaikum

 

Wow u been tru a lot, but alhamdulilah even after that Allah almighty guided u 2 dis straight path, welcome to Islam brotha. :D

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Assalamo alaikum :D

 

Welcome to Islam Steve my brother in Islam.

Your story is truly wonderful. You approached the Quran from one of its wonders, and insha'Allah later on you'll find out that it has more than that.

 

It seems that you have reverted a short while ago, is that so?

Btw, we use the word 'revert' instead of 'convert' because God brought every child in this world with a natural submittance to Him, and that is the definition of the word 'Islam' = submittance to God. Its only later on in our lives that our parents raise us differently. So, when you discover the truth and embrace Islam, you are simply reverting to what you was, when you came to this world.

 

Welcome to Islam brother, and welcome to the "you can't post links until you reach 50 posts_www.google(contact admin if its a beneficial link)/search?q=Islamic+forum&sourceid=mozilla-search&start=0&start=0&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&client=firefox-a&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official"]Islamic Forum[/url].

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Thank you very much for sharing your inspiring story. It seems like you have been through a long journey!! May Allah continue to send his blessings on you, keep you in His light, show you the way, and guide you forever.Take care of my new brother Allah!

 

Insha Allah, things will be a bit more easier for you. If you have any problems, questions, or things you need to talk about, remember we're all here for you.

 

Fee eman Allah,

 

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Very inspring story......Could u give more details...I mean Where are u form how old are you..are u still in school or woking etc..ie. if u dont mind ?

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It seems that you have reverted a short while ago, is that so?

yes indeed, I 've REverted ( :D ) only 2 months ago.

what gave me away? :D

 

Could u give more details...I mean Where are u form how old are you..are u still in school or woking etc..ie. if u dont mind ?

 

I'm from Belgium (a small country to the north of France for those who don't know it :D )

I'm 22 years old. I was studying industrial engeneering, but it was a lil' bit to diffucult for me, so I quit. I don't know yet what I'm going to do next year; but I am planing on studying again...

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yes indeed, I 've REverted (  :D ) only 2 months ago.

what gave me away?  :D

:D (meaning Peace be upon you :D)

It was written all over the post.....:D..thnx for the rest of the info....and Doesnt Belgium make lots of chocolate...?

Edited by truthful

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Assalamu alaikum bro steve,

 

That was a really beautiful story and credit to u for hanging in there when it seemed that everything was going against you. Praise be to Allah for showing you the light and beauty of Islam and may your journey always be blessed.

Belgium....so i'm guessing you speak francais?

 

Wa'alaikumu salam

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Actualy i'm from the northern part of Belgium, so I do speak French but Dutch is my native tongue.

And yes we do have a lot of chocolate. :D

 

Thank you all for all your kind words. I see many people empethise with my history. But I feel obliged to tell you not to feel sorry for me. I wouldn't trade my life for an easyer one. The things that happened; I'm sure they had a reason, and if they hadn't I wouldn't have been the person I am today. All I can do is praise Allah that he guided me when I needed him.

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Assalamo Alaikum, brother!

 

Welcome to Islam, and to this large family we call the Forum. :D

 

May Allah :D reward you for your reversion and make your stay in this forum memorable.

 

Your story is most enlightening into how Allah :D brings light into the minds of some of us. Sorry to hear about your having dyslexia. You are absolutely right when you say that may be that is what makes you the person you are. Allah :D gives each of us a rare personality and makes us different to each other. I believe we have to measure each person according to what he/she does in the form of the deen, as that is how Allah :D measures us. The more dedicated we are to Him, the closer we are to Him and to achieving success in this life. Moses (on him be peace) had a speech defect and was one of the dearest of Prophets.

 

Wassalam

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Asalama aleicoum brother steve,

i im veroy glad that you are now im muslim . alhamdolilah bevause Allah swt guides who he wants to the right path and thank god for him guiding you.

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Asalama aleicoum brother steve,

I i'm very glad that you are now im muslim . Alhamdolilah because really Allah swt guides who he wants to the right path and thank God for him guiding you. To tell you the truth , the more closer you became to Allah ; the more happiness you'll find. So the only advice I have for you is to always keep Allah in mind and spirit and he surely will not forget you.

 

Asalama aleicoum brother and may Allah bless us all in life. Ameen

 

 

Your sister Sareedo :D

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:D Brother

 

Thats a pretty unique story! And an emotional read even for a stranger like me!, Especially the part where you are sitting with your fiend smoking pot and that awful yet spiritual experience happened which turned out to be turning point for you.

 

Welcome to Islam bro, and all the best

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As salamu Aleykum

 

Mashalah brother, welcome to Islam. Beautiful story!

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salamu alikum, mashalah ,so beautiful story :D

welcome to you brother and may Allah strenght our iman and keep us on right path.

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salamu alikum, mashalah ,so beautiful story  :D

welcome to you brother and may Allah strenght our iman and keep us on right path.

Salaam Alikum

 

Welcome to Islam Brother Chrism and the "you can't post links until you reach 50 posts_www.google(contact admin if its a beneficial link)/search?q=Islamic+forum&sourceid=mozilla-search&start=0&start=0&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&client=firefox-a&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official"]Islamic Forum[/url].

 

I hope you enjoy your time here as much as we we welcome a new Borther.

 

Salaam

 

:D

 

Brother Chrism

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Asalamu Alaikum brother, :D

 

:D for sharing such an inspiring story, May Allah always keep you on the straight path. Ameen... :D

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:D

 

mabrook (congratulations) on your reversion and welcome bak to your religion brother :D

 

 

:D to the dua

 

:D for sharing your story

 

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salamu alikum,

really wonderful story ,subhan Allah prise to god how really the morality and ethical grow up in heart the more the bad day come,

it is like the more you had bad day the more your inborn purity in your heart struggle for the way of goodness in life.we are really proud to have you in Islam .also mashalah you have gift from god to be fond of science,

so goin on in your study and we make duaa to god swt to allow everything easy for you and keep you and us in right path inshallah .

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