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Every Muslim has a story about their journey to Islam. Each one is interesting and curious to me. Allah truly guides who he wants and only who he wants. I feel so blessed to have been one of the chosen. Here is my story.

 

I always believed in one god. My entire life during hardship I asked god for help even as a child. I remember crying on my knees in the kitchen, screaming and crying all around me. I was praying for god to make it stop. Religion on the other hand never did make sense. The older I got the less it really made sense to me. People thinking they were the negotiator between you and god. I felt the same about Jesus peace be upon him. How does it work that this man would save us all from our sins? Why do we have the right to sin just because of him? I refused the bible in all of its versions. Believing something translated and rewritten so many times could not to be the real words of god. Around the age of fifteen I had given up on the idea of finding god.

 

Growing up my family was the average American family. Everyone I knew had similar problems growing up. My dad was a hardworking blue collar alcoholic. As time progressed his condition worsened so did his perversion. Sexual abuse, physical abuse, and fear made an imprint on my childhood that would reflect the rest of my life. He passed away when I was in the sixth grade. My parents had divorced by then. I was the youngest of eight children. My mother would go to work to support us and I was home alone a lot.

 

Here I was one of those kids who pull from society, who scare people when they walk into a room. I began wearing black clothing and the dark makeup. I listened to the gothic music and fantasized about death. Death seemed to be less of fear and more of solution to this growing problem. I felt alone all time, even around friends. I tried to fill the gap with cigarettes, then alcohol, sex, drugs and then anything that would take me from my own thoughts. I tried to kill myself at least fifteen times. No matter what I tried this pain inside of me never seemed to subside.

 

I was in college when I became pregnant with my son, I feared for my son’s health and could not dream of giving him away. I worked endlessly to provide for my son. Squeezing all the pain and anger into my heart I changed my life some. By this time I trusted no one. Three years later, I started to date again. I got engaged. I truly wanted to have the something more. As with all of my past experiences my world came crashing down. I was 25 and pregnant with my daughter and ended the relationship with my fiancé after he repeatedly cheated and physically hurt me. I had no idea what was next.

 

During this time I was working for a Pakistani guy who was Muslim. I never watched the news or even cared really what was going on. Being Muslim to me was no different than any other religion. As time moved on I became friends with several Muslim men. I began to notice something dramatically different. They had these unquestionable morals. A devotion to god in a way that required them to pray five times a day. Let alone the fact that they did not drink or do drugs. For my generation this was old school morals, maybe your grandparent’s might have fallowed.

 

When my daughter was born, you can’t imagine my surprise when one of these guys came in and brought gifts. I was shocked stupid he held her and spoke to her. I had never seen men behave this way over a baby. The kindness only increased with time over the next four months. I can’t express the love that was shown to us. Slowly my interest in their religion grew. I was curious as to what kind of religion could instill these kinds of values into people.

 

I was sharing a home with seven people when one night I decided to barrow my roommate’s computer. I was too afraid to offend my friends by asking them questions so I turned to the internet. The first site I opened was http:Islam-brief-guide I was dumb founded. It was if a black cloth had been lifted from my body and I swear to you that I had never felt so close to Allah. Within twenty-four hours, I took my Shahadah. To this day the majority of my time is spent on research. For the first time in my life something had stopped the anger, and the pain. I truly felt the love and fear of Allah. Allah had replaced the pain inside of me with his light, and faith in him. Since my conversion, Allah has truly blessed me. Allah gave me the strength to quite smoking, drinking and have not used drugs in almost two years. I am married to a wonderful Muslim man. He has taken my children and made them ours. I have something that I always wanted a family. Al humd Allah.

 

Would You Like Your Story Published? I have created a website tohelp Converts like myself you can find y story and others on "help-for-the-convert/"]help-for-the-convert/[/url]

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assalamu alaikum,

 

jazakAllahu khayr sister for sharing your story with us. I would say "Welcome to Islam" if Ibn Khaldun bro didn't find it funny :D

 

ma'assalam,

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Asalaamu Alaykum sister

 

Masha Allah, wow. May Allah bless you. Allah guides whomever He wishes and leads astry whomever He wishes. My Allah protect us Allah.

 

At the moment i'm giving dawah to one of my friends via email. Insha Allah i pray Allah opens her heart up to the truth. It's been 3 years nearly now.

 

Nice site Masha Allah, it should be intresting to read some more stories.

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:D,

 

beautiful story :D Glad to see that you are having a great life and married with kids, alhamdullillah. May Allah grant you more success, ameen.

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Salam aleykum

 

- Allah guide whom he will. "Allah o akber",

- i'm my self back to the right path after reading the same web site. Allah (swt) blessed me to look for it, to found it and gave me the courage to read it. and opened my heart to Islam.

 

Allah o Akber

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Assalamalaikum

I admire your courage and strength, but most of all the intellect you have in viewing things around you with a perception not alot of people have. Instead of laughing or judging you chose to explore the behaviour of muslims and subsequently Islam. Wow! Well done sister and welcome to the ummah!

Wasalam

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salamu alikum ,

 

i know i am reply late but i really like your story :D ,

life was dificult but alhamdulalah you could find the way mashallah.

may Allah strength your iman and keep you on right path

and we are proud to have you in Islam :D .

salamu alikum

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Oh Sister.God bless you with alot of His blessings.This kind of sharing stories direcly or indirecly could leave a deep impact on our those brothers and sisters those who has forgotten their moral values.Those who born muslims but dont know the actual worth of life of a muslim.I wish if all of us can realise what we have in the name of Islam and follow the right path which brings us near to Allah SUBHANAWATALLAH. Ameen Sum Ameen.

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As Salaam Alaikum,

 

Good story. I'm happy to read that you hvae converted. Also I just want to say that the average American family's dad isn't really like that though (sexual abuse, pysical, etc). It just seemed the points ran very fast into one another. :D

 

salaam

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Bismilla - Glory to him, He only and only exists with its attributes and nothing else in fact exist - LA Ilaha Illallah There are many lamps but only one LIGHT Only ONE light. he is WAHAD

 

 

My Dear "Almight keep you on right path and prevent from the attacks of devil"

 

Because you were in search of truth, So Allah almighty put you on right path. His one beatiful name among 99 beautiful names is "Al-Haadi", that mean who put the persons on right path but those who are sincerely in search of truth.

 

However It is very very important that when you recite Sura Fatiha in pray or any time during work, you should undersatnd the meaning and be attentive to Allah. Besides, Repeat always following three names of Almighty maximum time you can, being attentive to Allah. You will see, how extra knowledge and HUDA comes to you like a shower with in a few months. Many things will be disclosed to you about the reality.

 

Ya Aleem, (Knowledgeable and all-knower)

Ya Khabir, (informed about every action, thing in cosmos)

Ya Haadi ( who puts on right path)

 

Finally I congratulate you and you have get rid of believes which are only and only based on assumptions and fabrications. and you have chosen the path of truth and wisdom.

 

Not only Read Quran but understand it.

 

Read also some Gold books Muslim Aoulya (Friends of God)

 

Read 4 volume of Ihya Ul Aloom of Imam Ghazali. Link is as follow. Donot hurry up in reading. Even if you read one or two pages; it is very important to understand what is being read.

 

"http://ghazali/"]ghazali/[/url]

Ihya (Revival of Religious Sciences)

 

"http://ghazali/site/ihya.htm"]ghazali/site/ihya.htm[/url]

 

Allah Bless You (who is present every where and is nearer to the person than his/her Jagular vein) - Amin

 

Stranger01

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:D

 

I know im late, but wow, subhan'Allah such a nice story.

 

May Allah :D bless each and every one of us. Ameen.

 

p.s. its Alhamdulillah (Praise be to Allah)

 

:D

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:D

 

I tried to kill myself at least fifteen times.

 

:D

 

Subhnallah, Allhumdillah

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:D

 

I was shocked too. 15 times?? Thank God you didn't die.

 

May Allah :D protect us all. Ameen.

 

:D

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Assalmu Alakum,

 

I know how you felt when you were mad and wanted to kill your self. I was like that for a while, and now I am happy and I think it is because I have grown up more in love with Islam then anything else. Without it I would be an issue for my parents!!

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Assalamu alaikum

 

Subhan'Allah! :D

 

May Allah's blessings descend upon you and your family and keep you strong and firm on His way at all times. Ameen

 

Keep the faith sister :D ,

 

Ma'assalama

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Allah O AKBAR Allah O AKBAR

 

Alhamdolillah, alhamdolillah

 

I thank Allah that you found the only right and true path..

You would never find happyness in life and hereafter, unless you follow Islam.

 

The prophet (peace be upon him) said:

"This matter (Islam) will keep spreading as far as the night and day reach, until Allah will not leave a house made of mud or hair, but will make this religion enter it........."

 

May Allah keep us all firm on the straight path

May Allah keep us all in the best of Iman

May Allah keep you happy

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Salaam Sister,

 

This is the first time I ever called a woman 'sister'. I do not have sisters of cousins who are girls and I had not been and am not interested in communicating with women who are not legitimate to me but when I read your story in this post - I felt very good by knowing the way you came to Islam - the proclamation of shahadah in 24 hours... was awe inspiring. Hence I wanted to reply to you saying - you are one of those chosen women entitled to enter paradise Insha Allah.

 

 

Nice to know your story.

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I dont know I should say it but I think I should ,, My tears came down while I was reading the story above how this sister converted to Islam, MashAllah.

 

All I can say is that Allah loves you that is why He enlightend your heart , you are one of the luckiest humans that He choose you to be a muslim ,

 

May Allah bless you and your lovely family.. AMeen,

 

and yes I pray to Allah that you see this post of mine so that you remember me in your prayers too Ameen. :D

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